I was thinking about my past, I don't remember that much from 1st - 7th grade, untill just now. I started thinking back and talked to my friends to dig up a bit more. More and more depressing stuff came up to the surface, but it also explained alot. I now remember what I was bullied for, and how i handled it. I also thought of myself as fat and ugly, but i've never been more beautiful than 9th grade.
And I always thought of myself as a nice little girl back then. Then i think about how I treated some people in my life, I wasn't the nicest but neither was I mean. I was just easily manipulated by the people and world around me.
I guess this explains my obsession for heavy music, horror movies and dark manipulations.